by Lynn Cowell
“Then we will no longer be immature like children. We won’t be tossed and blown about by every wind of new teaching. We will not be influenced when people try to trick us with lies so clever they sound like the truth.” Ephesians 4:14 (NLT)
Climbing the stairs, it felt like I was going on an adventure to the past, but I was only heading to the attic.
It had been so many years since I’d cleaned my attic, and I was looking forward to going through all the boxes filled with memories. It didn’t take long to discover a box from my childhood, and there on the top was my little, gold diary.
Did you have a secret diary growing up? If so, I wonder if you’d find in yours what I found in mine: a girl struggling not to worry about what others would think of her.
Here are some of my swirling thoughts from sixth grade:
March 23: Right now, I don’t think much about boys. I may act like it, but I don’t.
March 26: John called and asked me to “go” with him. I didn’t want to, but my best friend told him I said “yes.”
March 27: Today, nothing much happened. I don’t know how my friend got me in this mess with John, and I don’t know what to do. Lord, get me out!
March 28: I broke up with John. Boy, am I glad I did. But he asked me to go out with him again. Ugh!
What a struggle! Although that trouble was with a boy, there were other times I wrote about frustrated feelings with friends and family, and confusion about what to do.
Do you know what the real issue was with many of my problems? I was fearful of people.
I wasn’t sure of the girl I was, or the girl I wanted to be. I often found myself acting all sorts of ways so I could be the person I thought my friends and family wanted, instead of being true to myself.
As I’ve grown, I’ve come to understand more of the truth in God’s Word. He has shown me I don’t have to spin like the Tilt O’ Whirl at an amusement park — trying to be everything to everybody. I don’t have to get on that emotional and exhausting ride. I’m becoming more and more brave every day to be the one He’s created me to be.
Ephesians 4:14 tells us: “Then we will no longer be immature like children. . . .